Jan 24, 2010

Star Crossed Lovers





I'm astro-geeking again...

See I'm more or less completely astrologically fucked when it comes to love! I just went through a quick comparison of my synastry chart with each of the ex's and/or temporary lovers that I've collected on my astro.com account.. Unbelievable how many similarities jumped out at me!! 3 or them had composite Sun in the 12th!? 3 had Venus in the 2nd and 2 Venus in the 8th but see that's not necessarily a good thing at all with me because my Venus is conjunct Merc and opposite my Moon and Saturn... All of them were either Aries or Scorpio rising w/one exception. 2 Moons in Taurus, 2 in Cancer, then of course 2-4 Scorpio, heh. All except for one are pretty damn incompatible with me and he is now happily married w/children.. yay :( I go drink now....

Jan 17, 2010

my Kabbalah Astrology

Characteristics Of Sphere (Sephiroth) And Their Attributes-




Netzach
Netzach occupies the 7th position in the Tree of Life and it is the sphere that is associated with victory. Netzach represents our inner feelings, our emotions and our sentiments. It reveals our heart felt desires, needs and requirements. The sephira reflects some of the practical aspects of human life and is ruled over by the Guardian angel Haniel. Speaking from an astrological perspective, the position occupied by the Netzach is ruled over by the planet Venus which in turn reflects those things to which we get attracted. The energy of Netzach can be used in analyzing our pleasure and positive aspects of life.

About Your Archangel
Haniel is the angel representing the month of December. Haniel is also known as the 'Angel of Harmonious Love'. This angel of December is generally seen in a green emerald dress with large gray wings carrying a brown lantern. The angel of love, harmony and romance, Haniel brings about peace, balance, beauty, grace and romanticism in our love life. This is the angel who helps us to be kind, compassionate and gentle in all our thoughts, activities and affairs.

Sphere Sign: Netzach

Position In Tree Of Life: 7th

Planetary Ruler: Venus

Archangel: Haniel

Lucky Day: Friday

Color: Green

Wood: Myrtle

Keyword: Victory, Endurance, Prophecy, Eternity

Metal: Copper

Yesod
Yesod occupies the 9th position in the Tree of Life and it is the sphere that is associated with foundation. Yesod represents the collective soul of mankind. The sephira provides an insight into ourselves and also our life patterns as it reflects our inner thoughts, heart desires, secrets, hopes, fears and apprehensions and is ruled over by the archangel Gabriel. Speaking from an astrological perspective, the position occupied by the Yesod is ruled over by the Sun which in turn reflects our relationship with everybody around us and the way we communicate with others. The energy of Yesod can be used to determine the ways of reacting to the several events of life.

About Your Archangel
The name Gabriel means the 'messenger of God'. Gabriel is the saint who is said to possess feminine power and as per the Bible God wanted her - Gabriel, to be the mother of his son - Jesus. This saint with a wise spirit lends us warmth during the winter season. Ruled by this saint, you are bound to become an actor, reporter, model, singer, musician or journalist. Anything that involves a spiritual dint will attract you and you are very straightforward in expressing your needs and desires. Gabriel acts as the friend, philosopher and guide by giving information on upcoming events, opportunities and changes.

Sphere Sign: Yesod

Position In Tree Of Life: 9th

Planetary Ruler: Moon

Archangel: Gabriel

Lucky Day: Monday

Color: Gray or Silver

Wood: Willow

Keyword: Foundation, Passion, Truth

Metal: Silver

Characteristics Of Path And Its Attributes

Hebrew Letter: Tzaddi, which means hook.

Location: Connecting path between Netzach and Yesod

Tarot Correspondence: The Star

Corresponding Planet: Uranus / Saturn

Yetsiratic Attribution: Constituting Intelligence

Color: Red

Element: Earth

More About Your Sun Sign-

Path Associated With Your Sun Sign: Path Of Tzaddi

Path Of Tzaddi
This is the path of righteousness. It is the path that is mostly followed by givers, bearers, altruists and all those people who selflessly sacrifices the vital things of their life for the others. People following this path are always a grave and serious. The innovators, rebels and geniuses, who always strive to attain the new things of life, find their strength and passion here.

Aquarius
You are a thinker, philosopher and an idealist. You have an even nature with a clear and sound mind. You are jolly and charming. You may not be very forthcoming with your feelings towards other people. Friendship means the world to you. You work well in groups. You have a deep interest in the psychic and occult sciences. You strive to do a lot for the mankind, given your planets favor you. You are diplomatic and can get your views across without hurting anyone. You are sociable and talkative and good company. You are quick witted with a very good sense of humor. You make friends easily and have no trouble keeping them.

Free Kabbalah Square Of Three

Kabbalah Square Of Three finds your planetary numbers which define your nature and personality. This is based on Kabbalah Numerology principles. The first and foremost knowledge of the Kabbalah is to understand the numbers, their properties and virtues. The numbers play an important role in Kabbalah numerology. This tool helps make your Table of Saturn or Fulfillment based on your date of birth.

Asraiya, February 13, 1976, Kabbalah Square Of Three Reading:

Jupiter 3
Sun 1
Mars 9
Venus 6
Moon 7
Mercury 5
Moon 2
Saturn 8
Sun 4

Moon Conjunction Venus
Venus Conjunction Jupiter
Moon Conjunction Venus
Sun Conjunction Moon
Sun Conjunction Jupiter

Whole Character Number is 1

Nature:- Spiritual Number
Planet:- The Sun
This number refers to the importance of retaining one's individuality above everything else. You are well aware of your singularity to the point of being even a snob or being too much self-conscious. This individual streak of mind is good as far as it helps you to be determined, confident and courageous. On the flip side, you run the risk of exerting dominance on others. The inherent egotism of your personality should be checked otherwise you can arouse disgust and similar negative feelings in others.


Jan 12, 2010

Pluto = Kether


Your result for What Planet are You From? Test...

You are from Pluto!

33% Pluto
Well, well.  So you are from Pluto, eh?  I’m not surprised at all. 

Pluto was once considered to be a cold and distant planet and the furthest away from the sun.  Now it is one of the dwarf planets in our solar system.  It was discovered in 1930, and has been quite an enigma.

It’s named after the Roman god Pluto who was originally the god of metals and then also took on the role of god of the underworld.  He had a way of digging things up and bringing them out to the open.  If he was an alien on the planet I’m sure he became quite popular and perhaps even a little bit scary.

But what does this mean about you? 

Well, first off it means that you don’t like secrets.  You will dig until you get to the truth, even if it means that you have to stir things up a bit in order to do it.  You would probably make a great detective.  You tend to notice things around you.

You have a life altering personality about you.  If things aren’t going well you have no trouble pulling out what you think is bad and rebuilding.  You could probably go somewhere totally new and be able to make a new life for yourself without the same problems other people might have.  You have a strong will and are very motivated.

My only hope is that you don’t try to take over the world.  It would never be the same again.  But, on the other hand, maybe that’s not such a bad thing after all.

Jan 6, 2010

the Genius

"This is true enough. In fact, the majority of people who claim to have "seen God," and who no doubt did "see God" just as much as those whom we have quoted, did nothing else.

But perhaps their silence is not a sign of their weakness, but of their strength. Perhaps these "great" men are the failures of humanity; perhaps it would be better to say nothing; perhaps only an unbalanced mind would wish to alter anything or believe in the possibility of altering anything; but there are those who think existence even in heaven intolerable so long as there is one single being who does not share that joy. There are some who may wish to travel back from the very threshold of the bridal chamber to assist belated guests."

-Book 4; part 1

Jan 4, 2010

A Sai Raya


This is the closest reference/origin of my spiritual name & magickal motto I have ever found outside of myself.. and just as I intended it represents the Sun, HGA, or my highest aspect.. well according to an "intemorphic" (lesbian) publishing site who claim to be linked to the original matriarchal religious traditions from 2 aeons ago. I won't say yay or nay to this.. I've caught a glimpse or two before of some past life experiences spent as a Priestess of Isis. It's just that the term "virgin" doesn't mean lesbian any more than it meant asexual nor sexually immature etc...


Sai Raya

Sai Raya is the Sun: the Great Luminary. As such, she is the Janya most immediately assimilable to Dea Herself (although all the Janyati* may be seen as Her Aspects). Her Aristasian name means simply The Lady, as well as The Radiant. Raya is the Aristasian word for Lady (in the Lord sense — there is no such specific word in English). Dea is sometimes addressed as Raya (Lady) even when the specific Aspect of Sai Raya, the Sun, is not intended. Her ancient Greek name is Theia, which is simply the feminine form of God, equivalent to Dea.
Very much might be said about the Sun. She is the Primordial Light, and it goes without saying that the physical luminary that represents Her in the material solar system is but an outward body or symbol of Her, just as the Sacred Mountain may be incarnated in some particular mountain on earth. The modern mind, with its shallow rationalism, finds it hard to grasp how very real is the incarnation of the Sacred Mountain in, say Mount Sinai, Mount Meru or Mount Olympus, how for their respective Traditions they are the one Sacred Mountain. But the Sun is a little simpler to understand, for there is only and can only be one Sun for the whole of terrestrial humanity.
And so materialism can fall into the opposite error — that of confusing the Supernal Sun with Her outward body (and so ludicrously imagining that traditional peoples worship "what we now know to be a ball of gas"). Sai Raya was before there was an earth to light or a Sun to light her. The same may be said of the Moon, and of each of the planets. They are Eternal Principles: principles that existed before our cosmos came into being and that will exist when all the worlds are dust.






When the Cosmic Harmony, or thamë is disrupted in any of Her created worlds, Our Mother God may descend to set affairs aright. Where conditions are favourable, She may even ameliorate the rigours of patriarchal theology. In Kali Yuga it is metaphysically necessary that she should do so in Her form as the Warrior Queen. Sai Raya incarnated on Earth as The Warrior Queen Raihranya Sai Rayanna http://www.mother-god.com/warrior-queen.html



*The seven Great Janyati have often been described in the image of the pure white (or colourless) light of Dea striking the Water of Manifestation and refracting into the seven streams of colour. Of these the first, and closest to the pure Light is that of Sai Raya.




At last.. Victory means Validation!

I had an appointment today with the clinical psychologist who serves as the director of Harborview Mental Health & Recovery Services....