Dec 25, 2015

a gigantic infographic worthy problem that accomplishes no-thing

  I don't buy the disease model. Addiction as a permanent lifelong disease you'll never get rid of, which is what they tell you in rehab, is the most futile self perpetuating crock of shit I've ever heard! That's like a mother raising her child by saying "it's okay, honey. you didn't know any better" over and over to the same behavioral issue. The kid grows up to tell his boss he didn't know it's not okay to piss in someone's cheerios, does that make it okay? No. I believe addicts are stuck in this same quagmire of super negative social stigma coupled with criminal associations thanks to the "war on drugs".  Reagan's backwards propaganda was every bit as effective as would have been a "war on dogs" would have been on house breaking puppies. Would you shoot a puppy for pooping on the carpet? Then don't shoot a fucking unarmed black kid!!! I digress ~ 

  The problem is where you see in this chart below the "frustration" or anxiety and also the "shame" parts of the cycle are always there with or without using the substance. You know what's caused me to relapse every time? People assuming I'm using when I'm not so I suddenly think why be so miserable with the struggle if everyone assumes I'm using anyway?! That's right, you my friends, don't have the slightest will to want to help. Nobody does! They all want you to be more of a disaster than they are so they continue to stigmatize you long after you're well into recovery. I was clean for a year and a half when I had this wannabe nemesis go spreading it around that I'm a tweaker.. suddenly people who have known you for YEARS and never even suspected NOW look at you differently. 

"Oh.. you're one of those! I never would have hung out with you if I had known you were one of those."

I actually had this woman who I use to see black out drunk begging for cocaine at every single party while I was just my usual norm say that to me word for word after I told her I quit, I use to do that... Damned forever and nothing you can do about it, yeah? Well, then.. Fuck it! Doesn't even God forgive us for our sins but not drunk punk rock girl, nor boss man, nor ex best friends, definitely not the cops so whiskey tango foxtrot...
--------------------Hey, I know the solution.. How about an infographic?*!*?*! Yeah, that fixes everything:

Cycle of Addiction
Via Recovery Connection
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  The following video is precisely what I've been saying for years! Screaming, and crying, and humbly begging to be heard and understood.. My favorite is there's a "harm reduction" principle that's catching on slightly or slowly at least as far as heroin is concerned where the thought is give the addict prescription methadone rather than have them doing black market bought imported by global terrorist organizations and the Mexican Mafia is one of those as well so that at least the addict is not adding crime and those risks along with the health problem. But then there's the disease model that says an addict will do or say anything to get high and has no mind for self care or harm reduction or healthy lifestyle like he's just a zombie saying "drugggzzz?". Because no addict ever used a drug or substance to self medicate themselves ever and if doctors were willing to treat the initial problem then there is a very good chance that the addict will recover because there's no longer the problem that had them turning to illegal street criminal or should we say enemy combatant supplied medications. You can be a 10 year old kid with a minor behavior problem and will get spoon fed ADHD l-amphetamine but if an adult using the exact same thing for lack of focus, motivation, sleep problems due to performance anxiety, depression etc says they would really like to remove the horrible stigma and rejoin the good ole system of society by switching to a once a day pill instead of the pipe ~ 

"NO! You're an addict! You must suffer and be stigmatized the rest of your life as a failure so you will fail over and over and over...." 
"Because we like to feel superior and your need for medication is different from our thyroid pill, or our diet coke, or coffee, or sugar etc. We want to brand you bad so we don't feel fat or diabetic because it's not our fault, we didn't know any better..." 

"The opposite of addiction is not sobriety, the opposite of addiction is connection."

I wanna find my rat community compound party

Dec 23, 2015

This may be the most profound thing I've ever had to say.. thanks

[facebook status update:] "It's coming up on NYE here and I've gotta say if it weren't for all the BS rejection and ostracism I've suffered in my life for all your less than honorable and ethical reasons.. I wouldn't have been forced to rise above all your petty clique shit and move ONWARDS towards the breach and MY REAL TRUE DREAM, oh dear friends.. so Thank you very much, each and every single one of you!! 

Namaste, bitches! :P HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!"

 K peace ~

Dec 12, 2015

Top 3 Reasons why Women don't Respond to you on Tinder

Reasons Why Girls Don't Respond on Tinder

1.) We have too many options. Apparently the male to female ratio on Tinder is around 10 to 1. This means for every match you acquire she just acquired 10 new matches to try to respond to. In 3 days I acquired 37 new matches and I'm using a cheater app where I can flip through candidates without having to make a final decision to try to SLOW DOWN the process. Men on the other hand use cheater apps to try to increase their matches by liking large quantities at a time. If a woman was to do this she would easily have over a hundred matches by a week no matter how attractive she is or isn't but as you guys know, if she were to attempt to converse with all of them yet is not attractive she would be unmatched or ignored as men aren't any better than we are at responding on there even having far less quantity to have to deal with. 

2.) You didn't give us enough of a hook to lure us in either your profile blurb or your personal intro to us or both. Let's see.. you climb mountains, go fishing, like football (GO HAWKS!), enjoyed a day on a boat once, like the outdoors, are adventurous, you're new to Seattle (like 30,000 other tech workers) have a car, and a job (we got it), a bunch of friends, a hot ex, are totally happy with yourself so you're quite the catch, aren't you? You and precisely 80% of the other men who are also hot in sunglasses and baseball caps or sunglasses with beards. You're smart, do the math! For every message you send we have to respond to 10. That means we need to use discernment and after the 4th or 5th "Hey! How's it going?" that has nothing interesting or different for a subject which we can attempt to strike up an actual reasonably real conversation, we're out! No more "Hi. Pretty good, dude. How are you?" 

3.) You didn't give them good enough pictures to be able to tell what you really look like. Sure, a little mystery is alluring. A side profile staring in the sunset, a hot body jumping off a cliff, a painting presumably yours since you claim to be an artist, another backlit profile artsy image of band playing live and presumably the forefront microphone passionately singing one is you though the hair is different from the first image. We're interested! Musicians are hot! But why did you not give us an honest, normal, well lit, head on, semi close up/selfie (not mirror selfie body with your phone blocking your face) range shot? This is pretty much a minor form of catfishing, we'll call it jellyfishing: pretty from a distance but guaranteed to have a stinger somewhere. 

Dialogue be damned

Whenever I reflect upon my short comings, paranoid thinking due to incidents of abuse in my formative years that shattered my trust, and the...