Sep 30, 2017

MK Ultra and recreational drug use

And suddenly it seems so obvious after a conversation with my doctor about why I refuse to consider taking a low dose anti-psychotic before sleep. Anti-psychotic is an inaccurate term though if a person is having racing thoughts that are delusional it will make them stop but what the drugs are really neuro-tranquilizers. All recreational drug use has entered our society as a result of the MK Ultra mind control experiments. Ketamine, sometimes called kitty tranq and the K-hole when you fall into a deep fugue and don’t remember what happened to you is a prime example of this being true. If you had no skills in hypnosis and wanted to experiment with embedding something deep into a person’s subconscious, the use of a tranquilizer would be the obvious method. LSD is certainly a reality lubricant but it is too creative and complex and unpredictable where a person’s mind will go on it and can not be easily influenced nor accurately predicted what final new concept will be adopted by the psyche or composted and left. Meth amphetamine, a neuro-stimulant, was first used to make soldiers hyper-vigilant so it’s easy to see why a victim would be psychologically addicted to using it in an attempt of self defending their fragile but naturally self reorganizing mind from outside influence. I’ll modify that statement of “all” drugs because marijuana and heroin have been around much longer than these other designer chemicals and have some valid medical use in addition to the relaxing or numbing effects, the latter one being of a death wish whether the pain is real or inflicted by outside stimulus and of physical or mental/moral/emotional nature seems to matter not in the slightest. I only know that anything that makes me feel unglued to my body is not of any interest to me personally and this is why I’ve always refused to adopt the blanket notion of being an “addict”. I have perfect control over my alcohol consumption within reason meaning no one has control after a certain amount of consumption but that is precisely the state I avoid because of accidental alters stepping in to navigate them.

Sep 28, 2017

Mind Control Experiments 

All alien abductions, all satanic sex cults, and all flat earther states of psychosis are both real and not in the slightest because they are cover stories for the same secret program of mind control experiments started in the 70’s and surely is not still happening... Fact. Just be aware and don’t hurt these people more than they’ve already been abused & look for what’s real in them & ignore their delusion. Never been their fault at all so they need real friends & to be seen as a real person and not a mental head case that’s lost. This is all I know for now.

Sep 11, 2017

Mr. Big

I'm shocked and appalled at what I now see as the Big picture of how law enforcement goes about making assumptions and then vainly isn't capable of admitting when they're wrong. 

It's understandable to every American worker who's been say a project manager, the notion of spending huge amounts of company dollars, in this case tax payer money.. on a project that is not going to meet deadline nor ever have something to show for it. That is a tremendous amount of work stress and we all can see how a person could become offensive when faced with their own job/livelihood or an invested in suspect's to be adamant in pursuit of conviction, but that doesn't make it justice! In fact, that's so far from justice that it shouldn't even be legal: Professionally trained in psychological mind control tactics federal undercover agents presenting as scary ass mobsters with guns to sheltered teenagers who have seen enough movies to go along with whatever is necessary to stay on Mr. Big's good side because we all know (in the make believe movie Al Pacino world) what happens if you piss a mob boss off!

I just watched a Netflix documentary called The Confession Tapes. It's about two teenage boys who came back home to Bellevue after a night spent on the town in Seattle, or well sorta since they weren't 21 they ended up at Hurricane like we all did.. to find a horrific murder of one of their parents and sister. The police instantly made them the prime suspects and ignored other evidence of a Muslim extremist group hit put on this family. There's nothing reasonable about the boys behavior because there shouldn't be such thing as a reasonable expected behavior for anyone who's been through such trauma! The RCMP (the boys & family were all from Canada and only recently moved to Bellevue and the boys were on summer break from college visiting) went undercover as mobsters to coerce a confession from them which viewed in the right context is obviously incorrect and implausible.. stuff like "we threw the evidence out the window, idk fuck."

Here's the interesting part I'm going to add: The documentary goes to great lengths to claim that this method or tactic of undercover police work referred to as "Mr. Big" is illegal and not used in the US. I've met a Mr. Big twice in my life and the first time I was a teenager only 16 years old and Mr. Big forced me to do a line of cocaine to prove that I was "cool" or not a "narc". I had a rule back then that I will try or experiment with any drug (pot, acid, mushrooms) EXCEPT heroin or cocaine (hadn't heard of meth yet or it would be on the list too). At first I said "no" but there were guns laying on the table or on these guys belts because of course they were cops!! I'd never been around guns growing up so I WAS SCARED. I did my first line of cocaine, breaking my own intelligently set and decided upon rules, at 16 yo at the hand of people who are being paid tax dollars to serve & protect me all to not blow their cover. When you're a teenager these lines drawn in the sand are fundamental to how you see yourself as a person. The difference between a good girl and a slut drawn at your waistline cuz 2nd base is fine but not 3rd. At 16 already breaking my own rule proved to be a lifelong detrimental occurrence when I got to 23 and faced once again the decision to do or not to do hard drugs. I'm lucky though because I've only spent 24 hours in jail unlike the boys who are the exact same age as I. 1995 was also my first year in college and treading the weird world of being an adult that I still haven't quite figured out... 

What's normal when there's people out to get you as if you're always at war with the cops or the system and minding your defense despite being a good person without wrongful intent?

The 2nd time in my life I met a Mr. Big in the US of A you can read about here in this article in The Stranger by Brendan Kiley called The Long Con.

Atif Rafay and Sebastian Burns were convicted based on their coerced confessions to the undercover Mr. Big mafioso new friend who forced himself on them and right off the bat started systematically working to convince them that admitting to a crime of murder would make them loyal and trustworthy to him. They are both serving triple consecutive sentences of life without parole for a the murder of Atif's entire family. Is there anything more contrary or precisely the exact opposite of JUSTICE? I truly think not. They have been put into solitary confinement. I and my friend Rick have been investigated for terrorism, not the Muslim extremist organizations!! I, nor they, nor Rick have ever done anything wrong but go about our lives doing the best that we could with whatever may confront us. I'm a little broken though inside and out. 😢💔👨🏼‍✈️👏🏻😳

Dialogue be damned

Whenever I reflect upon my short comings, paranoid thinking due to incidents of abuse in my formative years that shattered my trust, and the...