Dec 27, 2011

sweet Crowley, rest in peace, baby kitty

Alice Rose Crowley

10/3/2007 ~ 12/24/2011

It twas the nightmare before Christmas when my boyfriend broke up with me leaving me alone with nothing but my sweet kitty. Then all of a sudden she began acting strange and lo and behold she had a tumor or some sort of growth on her head we suspect was pressing on her brain causing her nervous system to begin to fail and she lost use of her front two limbs.. Sad! So on xmas eve the ex had to bring she and me to the cat hospital to put her to sleep. Please, let her rest in peace and please let the rest of this dreary holiday not be any more traumatizing. Please?

on xmas eve <3

Dec 21, 2011

Idiomorphisizing "Terrorism"

Terrorism: (noun)  
1. the use of violence and threats to intimidate or coerce, especially for political purposes.
2. the state of fear and submission produced by terrorism or terrorization.
3. a terroristic method of governing or of resisting a government.

So it seems like the American government has a real chip on its shoulders about the whole Occupy Movement. That's okay because a house divided against itself can not stand and for the rest of us it may just be a blessing in disguise because we will soon hit the point of zero tolerance and start to change the language back in on itself. 


If it becomes an overused meme then we don't know what it means.. actually I already don't since the "terrorists" are the ones waging war on "terrorism"! I hear by am terrorized by Congress, the President, and our Police force who swore to protect the Constitution yet are aiding and abetting the terrorist agenda which is threatening to remove all remaining "freedom" in the name of "protecting freedom"  

War is Peace, Freedom is Slavery, and Ignorance is Strength

Dec 15, 2011

wake the dead

Too scared to sleep because I will awake to the shock of finding the most horrible nightmare imaginable, the one I thought couldn't be here, is real

only in my dreams..

fault line

Never let someone be your everything because then you will be left with nothing...

Dec 13, 2011

Oh my heart! My heart! My heart! Can not take this! Not tough enough! Not

Dec 12, 2011

Today is the day..

...that I made the Sun come out inside of me! Hey look, it's shining down on you, and everyone I see. Hold a grudge though and you will see a cloud but that Sun is shining no matter what you see. Let the rain come and tomorrow you'll see. The Sun will shine until we are free ~

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Dec 3, 2011


if only I'd known it was my last I'd maybe done something different or at least breathed in the moment more fully...

It's colder than before
The seasons took all they had come for
Now winter dances here
It seems so fitting don't you think?
To dress the ground in white and grey

It's so quiet I can hear
My thoughts touching every second
That I spent waiting for you
Circumstances affords me
No second chance to tell you
How much I've missed you

My beloved do you know
When the warm wind comes again
Another year will start to pass
And please don't ask me why I'm here
Something deeper brought me
Than a need to remember

We were once young and blessed with wings
No heights could keep us from their reach
No sacred place we did not soar
Still, greater things burned within us
I don't regret the choices that I've made
I know you feel the same

My beloved do you know
How many times I stared at clouds
Thinking that I saw you there
These are feelings that do not pass so easily
I can't forget what we claimed as ours

Moments lost though time remains
I am so proud of what we were
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits
Grant me wings that I might fly
My restless soul is longing
No pain remains, no feeling
Eternity awaits

~VNV Nation

Dialogue be damned

Whenever I reflect upon my short comings, paranoid thinking due to incidents of abuse in my formative years that shattered my trust, and the...