Feb 21, 2018

Why I Hate Using Facebook

The single reason why I absolutely HATE using facebook is it’s unbelievably annoying and constant need to change everything in more often than not failed attempts of improving user growth or gain competitive edge despite always being on top. It’s entirely too unpredictable and is irritating to no end when you grow to count on using a platform to market your business, but can’t count on your plans being fulfilled from day to day because every single day you have to brace yourself for change and waste a tremendous amount of could be productive time on re-educating yourself on how to use the site. It’s entirely too complicated because it tries to keep absorbing every new social media format made which has made it entirely too useless & time consuming, especially when all the time invested in something like gaining page likes gets thrown out the window to be replaced by groups. Actually groups was the thing that began to make me start checking out and I’ll explain precisely why in a min here.

What facebook 100% has failed to realize about the success of its competition is that simplicity and consistency outweighs features and functions. Facebook started out a streaming site almost exactly like twitter who’s success is based on merely the fact that it stayed true to its original format and made minimal changes over time. Facebook then in order to siphon user away from myspace integrated the personal page minus html options which I still think is lame btw.. Yes, it did indeed stage a coup and has been trying to replicate that same phenomenon much like Amazon has taken over the retail industry which it can’t and won’t ever achieve because we’re increasingly getting bitter by the audacity. We go to twitter, snapchat, instagram, tumbler etc. to escape facebook for at least a moment of mental sanity because they’re simple one trick ponies which is surprisingly refreshing! Where facebook once was a service that helped connect us with people like by hosting event pages for free, it now requires more and more time spent in isolation trying to process all this homework it’s made. Have to go to 100 different group pages and comment on a dozen different original posts and try to maintain a million different conversations all at once while remaining chipper and friendly aka likeable is overwhelming af. We’re consumer hostages like rats in a maze being experimented on which is why I refuse to log on more than once a week and my profile holds a disclaimer saying I don’t bother trying to keep up with notifications and won’t feel bad for it either. Not worth stressing! Suck it. Peace. 

Feb 14, 2018

At last.. Victory means Validation!

I had an appointment today with the clinical psychologist who serves as the director of Harborview Mental Health & Recovery Services. He said yes, approximately 1 in 50 are in fact considered good candidates for self medicating ADD diagnosis instead of considered meth addicts. Having no criminal record nor history of emergency room visits due to overdosing, the fact I'm 42 with all my teeth and don't look like the typical user and maintain a perfectly reasonable cognitive level and regular meal & rest schedule makes me a candidate. I was right! I didn't give up on myself because I knew there was a better option than absolute abstinence until eventual frustrating relapse occurrence when I would finally decide that my will was to do the things I am capable of instead of be a helpless spectator. Neither were good for my self esteem but I determined I was happier when I am productive and would just have to accept the loneliness as drug use is a relationship deal breaker says everyone including people who are bipolar, alcoholics, Ducati addicts without internal organs from racing wrecks.. whatever! Everyone thinks they are the exception to being able to judge poor impulse control behavior and it's impossible for someone under demon drug possession to carefully assess their own situation to come to an unpopular conclusion that might actually be true and 100% valid. To all the haters and the ex who conveniently used the excuse instead of admitting to his serial situation:

SUCK IT!!!

Feb 12, 2018

Tinder FTW

My profile blurbs written for tinder then cut/pasted, edited/saved on notepad app as a collection for tits n giggles:


 8/21/2017 ~ Perpetually challenged by the transition from app to real world relationship awkwardness arising approx. 3-4 dates in when it's too casual to delete tinder but too intimate to avoid weird feelings...


8/4/2017 ~ Never give up! Give back more than you take so that you know you're leaving the world a better place than the one where you came. Pain is inevitable but suffering is a choice. Choose better! Find an imperfect person and accept them anyway knowing you're far from perfect but capable of achieving greatness if someone would only lend you a little hope & faith for a min instead of apathetical instant judgement with no real knowledge from which to base. Change the fucking world! Heal instead of hate.


12/14/2017 ~ I prefer lanky to “healthy”

younger to older,

long hair to no hair,

and hook up to pen pal most definitely.


However, I’d rather repeat something satisfying than keep swiping and trying so seeking a regular exclusive fwb for bareback & cuddling. 


Sign up now for an interview & possibly an audition!


3/17/2017 ~ I'm a circus πŸŽͺ soul sister who's currently  obsessed w/ pro wrestling monkeys.πŸ’ My parents are still married so despite having no interest in child rearing, I believe in love and long term monogamous relationships and I'll never give up!


Know Thyself πŸ”₯ Igni Natura Renevatu Integra!


No kids, never married, one kitty.

I live to DANCE & inspire transcendency. 🎭


9/11/2017 ~ I enjoy long walks through sprinklers on my way home from the bar... I'm here to find someone who's also willing to adopt alien babies, be a family, and one day go home to the stars!


1/28/2018

Finally figured out why a few weeks back I was experiencing a high rate of responses/messages from matches, by tinder standards that is (approx 20%) and suddenly it stopped 


😱 You guys aren’t interested in “Feminists” which by the very definition in semantical terms should be ALL FEMALES but of course there are always some tragically dumb apes amongst us πŸ¦πŸ™ŠπŸΆπŸ™ˆπŸ©


Real men aren’t opposed to women asking (**to not be raped a 3rd time!!**) for EQUALITY


2/7/2018 ~

I “look like fun” apparently. I have fun doing a lot of things. I make things fun even while working. If you’re bored, then you’re boring! If you need sex, you’re not very sexy!! Giving is hot. Patience is appealing. Intelligence is a turn on. Fun is not always getting your fantasy fulfilled but showing appreciation for a person’s time anyway. Nothing in this world is free and especially not intimacy. It is earned by decency & learned with respect. Be a gentlemen or you can go suck it. 



2/12/2018 ~

Bullet ClubπŸ€˜πŸ»πŸ’‹πŸ€˜πŸ»πŸ’‹πŸ€˜πŸ»


IT’S MY BIRTHDAY! Tuesday 2/13

I’m so much fun that I dedicate my whole entire life to serving others as a visionary catalyst for a non-profit art org founded & directed by myself. I’m a pro wrestling fan for a hobby which I work really hard at but my dream still is to be a Cirque du Soleil character in a show touring the world. I’m also looking for a life partner, not to be your life nor versa vice but experiencing feels in time. 

IG: @asraiyaonfire

Dialogue be damned

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