quest for contentment

  I realized I tend to fall into a slight slump of depression when days, like today, I texted my latest man crush and hours later still received no response. In my latest pursuits of practicing yoga (not just asana but also pranayama, the yamas, and niyamas, pratyahara, dharana, dyana, and samadhi) this attachment is no longer acceptable to me. In meditation it is possible to locate the original experience of something, it's seed if you will, and observe the austerity of it thereby eradicate it or liberate yourself from it once and for all. So I sat down in meditation and tried to get to the root of that sense of need to be exclusively special to someone other than me. I traced it all the way back through my life and discovered it's deeply located in the womb and even before conception there was the calling, the sense of being wanted and needed to incarnate for higher purpose.. This exercise I suppose can be labeled "FAIL"



  

rebound relationships..

what do you really expect them to be? nothing shy of short, fast, and furious? no, not really...

*sigh


sipping champagne to celebrate crash and burning again. anyway....

Buproprian

Letter to the Washington State Health Care Authority (HCA) who only recognizes five formulations of medications in the treatment of addictions: Suboxone, buprenorphine, Campral, naltrexone and Vivitrol IM.


Dear HCA,

I would like to request or suggest that Buproprian be added to the list of recognized for use in Medication Assisted Treatment of cocaine, methamphetamine (MA), and nicotine addiction. ADATSA (Alcoholism and Drug Addiction Treatment and Support Act) is currently stifled by the fact that patients enrolled have to apply for additional Medical assistance after already waiting a month for their ADATSA assessment and benefits to go into effect because their chemical dependency is considered a behavioral problem. One of the reasons why MA use has escalated to an epidemic of epic proportions is this ill conceived notion that it is only a psychological addiction instead of a physical one. The difference between a psychological and physically addictive substance is the primary organ effected by it's use, heart or brain. Psychological addictions are not overcome by coaching an addict to think differently because the substance does not alter their brains by merely coaxing them to behave badly. MA profoundly alters the chemistry of the brain effecting the whole central nervous system! Just because a person can technically still be alive without brain function opposed to clinically dead if their heart stops which is the risk of ceasing opiate and alcohol intake, does not mean that the person has any less of a problem! If pharmaceuticals can treat or reduce the damage caused to a stimulant user's brain then they should be every bit as available since they suffer an increased debilitation in function if prolonged. Opiate users only confront their fear of a periodic painful discomfort trying to stop opposed to an unaided, involuntary lack of control of their decisions. The brain is complex chemistry, the heart is only a muscle...

Thanks for reading!

Sincerely,
HDeyo

Black Hole Sun

Okay so I've tried to remain extremely skeptical about all the Niburu conspiracy theories, using scientific discretion, however I'm not sure what to make of this! Why does the "sun" appear black in these webcam photos live in Antarctica?!? Check it out:

Webcam Neumayer Station III

FLASHMOB

CHOREOGRAPHY FOR PAID FLASH MOB ON 1/25/2012!!!

K first off since you can't see all of me in my "Born This Way" video.. Watch this one for what's going on in the first part (except the timing changed slightly so that you're wagging your hips until "right track" or 5, 6 and sliding down your body on "baby I was born.." 7, 8)



Then I think you can see the rest of it here. There's a 4 count just before we step together step touch (snaps) for you to just give some attitude like "yeah, we kicked ass.." heh




I am ready to record "Marry the Night" asap! But for now this is my inspiration version for you to watch and MIRROR until you get mine hopefully by the end of the night...



Check back here for updates! Costume details! Call time on Wednesday! Plan to meet up early that day so we can work out our formations, who starts when, and run it several times to make sure we're on the same foot/page!!