Lucha! Lucha! Lucha!

 Yeah, I’ve been head ref for Lucha Libre Volcánica for 8 years now!!

#SuckIt👅

Dialogue be damned

Whenever I reflect upon my short comings, paranoid thinking due to incidents of abuse in my formative years that shattered my trust, and the pattern of rejection that seemed to reinforce it later as an adult locking me into a victim’s mindset... I think, at least I wasn’t raised Catholic! Then I’d never have a chance to effectively function in this world. 😳

Is this a form of survivor’s guilt? It seems to be common amongst victims of physical or sexual abuse as both a child or an adult and amongst those who suffer from ptsd. We outweigh our blessings and try to forget our trials. We don’t recognize where we were hurt and this disconnect leads to a psychosis of sorts because we can always look to who had it worse and insist that our privileges have built in an ability to cope. This is self delusional and it comes around to bite us in the foot when try to strive forward. 

But I have loving parents who worked hard to give me the best life that they could and continue to provide for me financially in my time of emotional recovery. But am I really in recovery? I’m still isolating myself while living in fear of being ostracized by my peers. I still don’t feel good enough to be accepted and ashamed I’ve had it so good! I still take every action and decision towards my placement in every group dynamic as a slight and proof that I’m a victim of bullying as an adult. I expect everyone in a position of authority to either feel jealous and threatened by me or just callously prey on my vulnerability to make me hurt. There’s no in between. Nobody wants to recognize my worth and place me on equal footing. Is this a self fulfilling prophesy or just the real way of the world? I can’t tell. 

I do know in an unstructured system of earning advancement where expectations are psycho-social as much as they are physical standards or merit based on effort shown, I’m petrified to leave my pedestal of withering dignity and surrounded by a chasm of hellish monsters and ghosts. People on the perimeter either ignore me seeing me frozen in resistance or whenever they call out to me, the chasm distorts these words. A traumatic childhood experience, no matter what the degree of atrocity nor the amount of nurturing received to contradict the extent of suffering, always results in a hyper-vigilant defense mechanism. My parents lied to me about Santa Claus for their own amusement and now I’m expected to dance like a monkey every time someone’s unconscious body language reveals some untruth to their words. I constantly look for behavior patterns to affirm or deny whatever I’ve been told. 

I’m suspicious and for good reason too because if you look beneath the surface everyone has personal biases and ulterior motives for what they do whether they’re aware of it or not. You can hold people to their word and maneuver yourself about the world positively and not get disturbed. However, if you’re confidence is eroded you fall into the fear that people are playing good faces while they undermine, plot, and cook. Thing is this too is not unreasonable or irrational because remember, if you play into that option people enjoy a good deception plot and will hold themselves in high regards all the while too. It’s up to you which path you choose and what part of the person’s programming do you add your piece of code. 

Woah 😎 Matrix swerve. The other result of childhood sexual trauma in addition to hyper-vigilance is disassociation, a refuge from personal pain. These combine to make one an expert in pattern recognition where you can always remove yourself to the level of statistics, mere metaphors, or writing in third person about your own deepest insights and experiences. Clinical. This is also what the IQ tests you for. People who can peer beneath the surface at how things work have high IQ scores. On the good neuro-normative side you can become an engineer, chemist, biologist, doctor, or physicist. On the neuro-atypical or emotionally damaged side you become an empath, drug addict, sensitive artist, self analyzing psychologist, social neurotic philosopher and self aggrandizing blogger. 

So what do I want? I want people to recognize me as special and treat me special and I don’t know why... I think it’s because of my trustworthiness, truthful intentions, loyalty and commitment to do right by everybody. I have this firm belief that if you’re only a good person people will be good to you but that’s not true. People perceive you, not as you perceive yourself, but how you perceive them! If you don’t trust someone, they won’t trust you either. If they belittle you, it’s you who’s belittling them. Someway, somehow, this is the way of the world...

With that I think I may have solved my problem!! This will be bizarre to put into practice and test but I think if I treat people better than they are, they will treat me better. Instead of focusing on projecting myself as competent and capable, project that they are exceptional and they’ll qualify me on their own accord. Weird. Seems manipulative. But if it works, it works! I suppose naturally trusting people follow this pattern automatically whereas I just always bring out the worst.. Sure couldn’t hurt to try something new if only habits could be installed and uninstalled like software. So do I wear my insecurity on my sleeve instead of bury it where it won’t be used against me? Fishing for compliments wouldn’t hurt since I need some encouragement. 

Thing is I’m hurt. Always hurt. Afraid. Cautious. But confident that I can do anything when given a chance!! The bridge is people though and I think I forgot that essential sit down session. It’s true that I’ve held a long developed habit of burying my head in the sand around the wrestling scene going all the way back to SSP after parties when the conversation would flip back and forth like lightning between kayfabe and politics. As a working circus artist and a respected friend, I was permitted to track and add ideas and speculate on the creative part but I didn’t speak wrestle jargon then and mainly knew folks by their stage names. Whenever they would flip to behind the scenes, and I’d ask tracking questions.. I was told “don’t worry about it” and “stay out of it” if it escalated and I drunkenly tried to mediate the mood. (btw.. There’s a movie of all of this!!) Policy was I stayed out of politics. Period. 

Problem is now I still don’t feel like I have a place backstage to talk and therefore my thoughts and feelings are superficial when they’re not. I’ve been smoking pot and avoiding talking then erupting in these enormous monologues all day all alone. Heheh. Here I was thinking I was hard working while I use working to avoid the hard work. Afraid. Cautious. Hurt. How’s this gonna work?

Why I Hate Using Facebook

The single reason why I absolutely HATE using facebook is it’s unbelievably annoying and constant need to change everything in more often than not failed attempts of improving user growth or gain competitive edge despite always being on top. It’s entirely too unpredictable and is irritating to no end when you grow to count on using a platform to market your business, but can’t count on your plans being fulfilled from day to day because every single day you have to brace yourself for change and waste a tremendous amount of could be productive time on re-educating yourself on how to use the site. It’s entirely too complicated because it tries to keep absorbing every new social media format made which has made it entirely too useless & time consuming, especially when all the time invested in something like gaining page likes gets thrown out the window to be replaced by groups. Actually groups was the thing that began to make me start checking out and I’ll explain precisely why in a min here.

What facebook 100% has failed to realize about the success of its competition is that simplicity and consistency outweighs features and functions. Facebook started out a streaming site almost exactly like twitter who’s success is based on merely the fact that it stayed true to its original format and made minimal changes over time. Facebook then in order to siphon user away from myspace integrated the personal page minus html options which I still think is lame btw.. Yes, it did indeed stage a coup and has been trying to replicate that same phenomenon much like Amazon has taken over the retail industry which it can’t and won’t ever achieve because we’re increasingly getting bitter by the audacity. We go to twitter, snapchat, instagram, tumbler etc. to escape facebook for at least a moment of mental sanity because they’re simple one trick ponies which is surprisingly refreshing! Where facebook once was a service that helped connect us with people like by hosting event pages for free, it now requires more and more time spent in isolation trying to process all this homework it’s made. Have to go to 100 different group pages and comment on a dozen different original posts and try to maintain a million different conversations all at once while remaining chipper and friendly aka likeable is overwhelming af. We’re consumer hostages like rats in a maze being experimented on which is why I refuse to log on more than once a week and my profile holds a disclaimer saying I don’t bother trying to keep up with notifications and won’t feel bad for it either. Not worth stressing! Suck it. Peace. 

At last.. Victory means Validation!

I had an appointment today with the clinical psychologist who serves as the director of Harborview Mental Health & Recovery Services. He said yes, approximately 1 in 50 are in fact considered good candidates for self medicating ADD diagnosis instead of considered meth addicts. Having no criminal record nor history of emergency room visits due to overdosing, the fact I'm 42 with all my teeth and don't look like the typical user and maintain a perfectly reasonable cognitive level and regular meal & rest schedule makes me a candidate. I was right! I didn't give up on myself because I knew there was a better option than absolute abstinence until eventual frustrating relapse occurrence when I would finally decide that my will was to do the things I am capable of instead of be a helpless spectator. Neither were good for my self esteem but I determined I was happier when I am productive and would just have to accept the loneliness as drug use is a relationship deal breaker says everyone including people who are bipolar, alcoholics, Ducati addicts without internal organs from racing wrecks.. whatever! Everyone thinks they are the exception to being able to judge poor impulse control behavior and it's impossible for someone under demon drug possession to carefully assess their own situation to come to an unpopular conclusion that might actually be true and 100% valid. To all the haters and the ex who conveniently used the excuse instead of admitting to his serial situation:

SUCK IT!!!

Tinder FTW

My profile blurbs written for tinder then cut/pasted, edited/saved on notepad app as a collection for tits n giggles:

 8/21/2017 ~ Perpetually challenged by the transition from app to real world relationship awkwardness arising approx. 3-4 dates in when it's too casual to delete tinder but too intimate to avoid weird feelings...

8/4/2017 ~ Never give up! Give back more than you take so that you know you're leaving the world a better place than the one where you came. Pain is inevitable but suffering is a choice. Choose better! Find an imperfect person and accept them anyway knowing you're far from perfect but capable of achieving greatness if someone would only lend you a little hope & faith for a min instead of apathetical instant judgement with no real knowledge from which to base. Change the fucking world! Heal instead of hate.

12/14/2017 ~ I prefer lanky to “healthy”

younger to older,

long hair to no hair,

and hook up to pen pal most definitely.

However, I’d rather repeat something satisfying than keep swiping and trying so seeking a regular exclusive fwb for bareback & cuddling. 

Sign up now for an interview & possibly an audition!

3/17/2017 ~ I'm a circus 🎪 soul sister who's currently  obsessed w/ pro wrestling monkeys.🐒 My parents are still married so despite having no interest in child rearing, I believe in love and long term monogamous relationships and I'll never give up!

Know Thyself 🔥 Igni Natura Renevatu Integra!

No kids, never married, one kitty.

I live to DANCE & inspire transcendency. 🎭

9/11/2017 ~ I enjoy long walks through sprinklers on my way home from the bar... I'm here to find someone who's also willing to adopt alien babies, be a family, and one day go home to the stars!

1/28/2018

Finally figured out why a few weeks back I was experiencing a high rate of responses/messages from matches, by tinder standards that is (approx 20%) and suddenly it stopped 

😱 You guys aren’t interested in “Feminists” which by the very definition in semantical terms should be ALL FEMALES but of course there are always some tragically dumb apes amongst us 🦍🙊🐶🙈🐩

Real men aren’t opposed to women asking (**to not be raped a 3rd time!!**) for EQUALITY

2/7/2018 ~

I “look like fun” apparently. I have fun doing a lot of things. I make things fun even while working. If you’re bored, then you’re boring! If you need sex, you’re not very sexy!! Giving is hot. Patience is appealing. Intelligence is a turn on. Fun is not always getting your fantasy fulfilled but showing appreciation for a person’s time anyway. Nothing in this world is free and especially not intimacy. It is earned by decency & learned with respect. Be a gentlemen or you can go suck it. 

2/12/2018 ~

Bullet Club🤘🏻💋🤘🏻💋🤘🏻

IT’S MY BIRTHDAY! Tuesday 2/13

I’m so much fun that I dedicate my whole entire life to serving others as a visionary catalyst for a non-profit art org founded & directed by myself. I’m a pro wrestling fan for a hobby which I work really hard at but my dream still is to be a Cirque du Soleil character in a show touring the world. I’m also looking for a life partner, not to be your life nor versa vice but experiencing feels in time. 

IG: @asraiyaonfire

It is not okay to HATE Feminists!!

I sometimes feel like I really am living in the Emerald City, not the pleasant nickname of Seattle, but in the merry land of Oz populated by mostly midgets because this world we all are living in now is not the same one I grew up in. 💁 Sure, I've been an adult for 20 years and in those 20 years technology has changed just about everything but for the most part it has brought the human race closer towards a general consensus about certain things such as this declaration written in 1848:

We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men and women are created equal; that they are endowed by their creator with certain inalienable rights; that among these are life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

Living on Earth approx. 40 years ago in the USA one thing was adamantly taught to us children and made perfectly clear to me: Women are equal to Men and are to be treated with respect and dignity. So why or how all of a sudden now in 2018 I'm told by one of my tinder matches that he's "not interested in feminists." 😐 Is this part of the Russian brainwashing that managed to get Trump elected? I don't care how much you might hate Hilary Clinton for whatever reason, she was not at all campaigning on a platform of feminism! I have to say I respect her for that because she too thought that would have been backwards and her actual real experience in politics would stand for itself. Apparently not because any man right now would launch into some crooked corruption rhetoric which will be funny once Mueller's investigation is done and we all know just how crooked Trump is. Maybe they both are/were? Doesn't matter! It was a year ago.

compliments of http://inspirobot.me 

When the term feminism first entered English toward the mid-19th century, it meant “feminine qualities or character,” a sense no longer in use. (Its companion term, feminist, also entered the language around that time, but it is not certain whether it was then used to mean anything other than “feminine or womanly.”)However, toward the end of the 19th century, both feminism and feminist unambiguously took on their modern meanings related to equal rights for women. source: http://www.dictionary.com/browse/feminist 

To say that you hate feminist is saying you won't tolerate a woman standing up for her personal rights: the right to be the only one who says what she can and can't do with her body throughout the course of her life. Women are not men's property like a pet or a slave to use and control! Women should also be paid equal to men because gone are the days of hard manual labor where it could maybe have been said woman are less productive in lifting large objects. Anyone sitting on their ass staring at a computer all day for work is no more or less superior for having a penis attached. Men don't want a test comparison in productivity between genders anymore because you know you would be shamed but women don't wish to harm your fragile egos! They just want an equal chance at the pursuit of happiness if they're going to have to go the whole way alone and not work together with an equal partner which is looking like it lately 😔💔...

This brings me to dating but no, finishing politics first. There seems to be this perception of a hairy armed hippie chic from the 70's or bull dyke lesbian man hater in the eyes of straight hetero cis men (gay guys will just giggle at you if you look to them for back-up and maybe say "ew!" but they mean that differently than you'd assume..) I am not going to get into abortion here other than to say that it is used to divide women from those who realize God is obviously not going to intervene when it comes to our life here on Earth and when you are poor struggling to eat and have somewhere to live, you know sometimes in order to survive you have to make decisions for what you emotionally & physically can handle. If you are being abused by a man whom you fear may kill you and pregnant with his child, the smartest choice for your survival is escape with no ties to him at all so that you have the full support of the law behind you. Everyone knows that child legally binds you to a person for 18 years unless they waive their own rights or have them removed by a court of law. Both options are extremely hazardous to either your emotional and/or physical safety especially if you can barely feed yourself and can only stay somewhere if you're quiet and not annoying anybody. 😩🙅

another inspirobot 

There have been a very small handful of ultra conservative politically or religiously motivated women who have claimed under pressure of men most likely, or their party to say they are not "feminist" which means they are Stepford Wives. Seriously! This does not make it okay to try to be divisive on the word "feminism" which once again means "having the characteristics associated with females" as in being into girly stuff. It's okay for you to say you didn't play with dolls and you don't wear pink but it's not okay to say on a dating site where you're trying to persuade women to at the very least have sex with you that you hate women who wear pink and you're not interested in them if they're into it.

💥THAT IS BEING A NASTY BULLY! 😡

Do you think that the world will honestly be a better place if we go back to the days when women are owned by their husbands and you only get the one and that's it but they will do whatever you want them to do without any game? If you want "variety" you have to go fight another one's husband so no more bro-mances, you're mortal enemies in defending your fortress you had to build by yourself with your hands... See! Women's equality isn't so bad now, is it? 🙆✌

yup, inspirobot duh..

Follow the White Rabbit

“When I used to read fairy tales, I fancied that kind of thing never happened, and now here I am in the middle of one!”

Off with her head!

whoosh

How to go from Green to Brown Hair in 20 min!

I absolutely LOVE wearing any shade of aqua, turquoise, and/or dark teal green hair!! For the photo above, I did a few bleach washes to get to an light orange color and used Manic Panic Voodoo Blue. But I was a little low on funds and accepted a Shiftgig freelance shift for a Microsoft event at the Convention Center without even thinking about the possibility of a dress code. The night before I worked and went to look over the event details to prepare to be in uniform (black collared shirt & black slacks ~ no visible tattoos and only natural colored hair!?) Uh oh 😱

So I got up plenty early that morning and ran to the drug store in search of a red temporary hair color to cover up & counter balance the green. I was hoping for one of those “shampoo in” colors that last until the next time you wash your hair varieties almost like the halloween hair spray crap but they only had it in brown which won’t work at all and only make the green a darker forest green so I had to buy a semi-permanent Colorista red which is going to stick around a couple weeks at least, in fact I think I’ll have to start over with a bleach shampoo if I want my green back but we’ll see...

20-30 min later I have a boring basic reddish dark brown and they never knew how close I was to showing up all to get sent back home with negative marks on my future shift eligibility. It 100% worked and the secret is using a true red (not mahogany brown but straight primary colored red) and it turns a nice warm brown easy as pie.

Cheers ~ Asraiya

Woe is Man Unto the Woman

REPENT, man who art afraid and disgraced.

Seek ye the TRUTH and the truth shall set you FREE:

http://www.esotericarchives.com/agrippa/preem.htm

On Reason, Rational Thought, and the Nature of Reality

There has always been an invisible or exceptionally blurry fine line between reality and accepted religious convictions. This is why the founding fathers of this country, in their most insightful intelligence, declared a separation between church and state so that the two could be free to exist autonomously. Opinions do not get to convict and subsequently condemn members of a free will society to death for each individual’s own right to govern their own bodies and make their own decisions according to what they think or feel is right for them at any given time. Cells growing inside a person’s body can be called a virus or a bacteria, normal or cancerous, good or bad, life form or parasite. We do not have proof that a tumor has intelligence, consciousness, or a soul, however we do have proof that they drastically alter the potential course of a person’s life and we are often able to change it provided the person is willing to voluntarily poison themselves to just short of the brink of death. Liberals think the option should exist for every individual while conservatives say they shouldn’t be taxed to pay for it. Religious scripture says “love thy neighbor as thy brother” while the distorted human interpretation of this same document says that their neighbor should have to suffer with the results of their actions while declaring themselves forgiven for being imperfect in thought and action. Thankfully we have a system in place of checks and balances to prevent any one individual’s adopted philosophical or religious opinion with which they choose to govern their own life has final say over another individual from getting to make their own choice regardless of the possible fallacy of human belief or perception.

So too until recently has there been a division when it comes to the results of what’s known as the scientific method that’s used to test what we think we know and refer to as “reality”. Physics has now proven that this notion of reality and the concept known as time is both relatively universal and strictly a matter of perception. By this now known fact I propose we suspend our disbeliefs and relinquish our capacity to determine what is crazy thought and behavior compared to what is correct perception and adhered to rationalization. For we can not know the difference between what the organs of our bodies perceive from person to person nor follow the train of thought from this sensory input in the computational organ called the brain of each other to come to a definitive final conclusion of them. Get over it! Quit calling people crazy and collectively ostracizing them for it because crazy people make crazy people act crazy and everyone suffers from these consequences in the end. 

Love one another with burning hearts! Respect autonomy and free will or you will be damned to pay the price of losing it and nobody wants that, yeah? Just do it then. K. Peace

MK Ultra and recreational drug use

And suddenly it seems so obvious after a conversation with my doctor about why I refuse to consider taking a low dose anti-psychotic before sleep. Anti-psychotic is an inaccurate term though if a person is having racing thoughts that are delusional it will make them stop but what the drugs are really neuro-tranquilizers. All recreational drug use has entered our society as a result of the MK Ultra mind control experiments. Ketamine, sometimes called kitty tranq and the K-hole when you fall into a deep fugue and don’t remember what happened to you is a prime example of this being true. If you had no skills in hypnosis and wanted to experiment with embedding something deep into a person’s subconscious, the use of a tranquilizer would be the obvious method. LSD is certainly a reality lubricant but it is too creative and complex and unpredictable where a person’s mind will go on it and can not be easily influenced nor accurately predicted what final new concept will be adopted by the psyche or composted and left. Meth amphetamine, a neuro-stimulant, was first used to make soldiers hyper-vigilant so it’s easy to see why a victim would be psychologically addicted to using it in an attempt of self defending their fragile but naturally self reorganizing mind from outside influence. I’ll modify that statement of “all” drugs because marijuana and heroin have been around much longer than these other designer chemicals and have some valid medical use in addition to the relaxing or numbing effects, the latter one being of a death wish whether the pain is real or inflicted by outside stimulus and of physical or mental/moral/emotional nature seems to matter not in the slightest. I only know that anything that makes me feel unglued to my body is not of any interest to me personally and this is why I’ve always refused to adopt the blanket notion of being an “addict”. I have perfect control over my alcohol consumption within reason meaning no one has control after a certain amount of consumption but that is precisely the state I avoid because of accidental alters stepping in to navigate them.

Mind Control Experiments

All alien abductions, all satanic sex cults, and all flat earther states of psychosis are both real and not in the slightest because they are cover stories for the same secret program of mind control experiments started in the 70’s and surely is not still happening... Fact. Just be aware and don’t hurt these people more than they’ve already been abused & look for what’s real in them & ignore their delusion. Never been their fault at all so they need real friends & to be seen as a real person and not a mental head case that’s lost. This is all I know for now.

Mr. Big

I'm shocked and appalled at what I now see as the Big picture of how law enforcement goes about making assumptions and then vainly isn't capable of admitting when they're wrong. 

It's understandable to every American worker who's been say a project manager, the notion of spending huge amounts of company dollars, in this case tax payer money.. on a project that is not going to meet deadline nor ever have something to show for it. That is a tremendous amount of work stress and we all can see how a person could become offensive when faced with their own job/livelihood or an invested in suspect's to be adamant in pursuit of conviction, but that doesn't make it justice! In fact, that's so far from justice that it shouldn't even be legal: Professionally trained in psychological mind control tactics federal undercover agents presenting as scary ass mobsters with guns to sheltered teenagers who have seen enough movies to go along with whatever is necessary to stay on Mr. Big's good side because we all know (in the make believe movie Al Pacino world) what happens if you piss a mob boss off!

I just watched a Netflix documentary called The Confession Tapes. It's about two teenage boys who came back home to Bellevue after a night spent on the town in Seattle, or well sorta since they weren't 21 they ended up at Hurricane like we all did.. to find a horrific murder of one of their parents and sister. The police instantly made them the prime suspects and ignored other evidence of a Muslim extremist group hit put on this family. There's nothing reasonable about the boys behavior because there shouldn't be such thing as a reasonable expected behavior for anyone who's been through such trauma! The RCMP (the boys & family were all from Canada and only recently moved to Bellevue and the boys were on summer break from college visiting) went undercover as mobsters to coerce a confession from them which viewed in the right context is obviously incorrect and implausible.. stuff like "we threw the evidence out the window, idk fuck."

Here's the interesting part I'm going to add: The documentary goes to great lengths to claim that this method or tactic of undercover police work referred to as "Mr. Big" is illegal and not used in the US. I've met a Mr. Big twice in my life and the first time I was a teenager only 16 years old and Mr. Big forced me to do a line of cocaine to prove that I was "cool" or not a "narc". I had a rule back then that I will try or experiment with any drug (pot, acid, mushrooms) EXCEPT heroin or cocaine (hadn't heard of meth yet or it would be on the list too). At first I said "no" but there were guns laying on the table or on these guys belts because of course they were cops!! I'd never been around guns growing up so I WAS SCARED. I did my first line of cocaine, breaking my own intelligently set and decided upon rules, at 16 yo at the hand of people who are being paid tax dollars to serve & protect me all to not blow their cover. When you're a teenager these lines drawn in the sand are fundamental to how you see yourself as a person. The difference between a good girl and a slut drawn at your waistline cuz 2nd base is fine but not 3rd. At 16 already breaking my own rule proved to be a lifelong detrimental occurrence when I got to 23 and faced once again the decision to do or not to do hard drugs. I'm lucky though because I've only spent 24 hours in jail unlike the boys who are the exact same age as I. 1995 was also my first year in college and treading the weird world of being an adult that I still haven't quite figured out... 

What's normal when there's people out to get you as if you're always at war with the cops or the system and minding your defense despite being a good person without wrongful intent?

The 2nd time in my life I met a Mr. Big in the US of A you can read about here in this article in The Stranger by Brendan Kiley called The Long Con.

Atif Rafay and Sebastian Burns were convicted based on their coerced confessions to the undercover Mr. Big mafioso new friend who forced himself on them and right off the bat started systematically working to convince them that admitting to a crime of murder would make them loyal and trustworthy to him. They are both serving triple consecutive sentences of life without parole for a the murder of Atif's entire family. Is there anything more contrary or precisely the exact opposite of JUSTICE? I truly think not. They have been put into solitary confinement. I and my friend Rick have been investigated for terrorism, not the Muslim extremist organizations!! I, nor they, nor Rick have ever done anything wrong but go about our lives doing the best that we could with whatever may confront us. I'm a little broken though inside and out. 😢💔👨🏼‍✈️👏🏻😳

Socialism v. Liberalism v. Conservative Capitalist

I've just had the delight of re-encountering this thread, from many years ago, when looking into further issues around this same question. My thanks to all who have contributed their fascinating answers. It is particularly noteworthy how different are the European and American perspectives on these terms. If I may, I'll share with you my own further conclusions on simple but distinctive definitions. Conservatives believe in inequality of opportunity and inequality of outcome. Liberals believe in equality of opportunity and inequality of outcome. Socialists believe in inequality of opportunity and equality of outcome.

Glenn Oliver, Ashbourne, UK

If truly it can be summed up, as Glenn above presents, in measures of equality in opportunity and the resulting outcomes of each then we must be clear to define what allows for equal opportunity and what inhibits potential outcomes of equal effort. If you went to school for 17 years completing a program with a 3.6 that suites your personal interests and utilizes your strengths and so did everyone else who now works 40 hours a week, should you be paid according to your level of authority or your level of necessity? Who gets to determine such things? Conservatives say government should not regulate industry which means the decision falls to those in authority and this obviously brings about inequality. Liberals take liberty in governing such things as a Democracy states they are representatives of the people who the majority of which are underpaid drastically compared to the CEO of the business that employs them. This brings us to measures of opportunity which are first and foremost concerned with our basic human needs for survival and then navigating the economic possibilities: food, water, shelter, medicine aka healthcare must readily be available for an equal survival rate and before such system is in place liberals will fight for this level of socialism because the current conservative state of affairs has people and their children dying without any opportunity to escape their fate because they do not make enough money to meet their needs no matter how much effort they're willing to contribute. This is where liberal programs such as food stamps come in because the thought is if they aren't starving then they will continue to go to work so that the fat CEO can continue to make millions. If we have no workers, we have no rich authority. If we have no tax payers, we have no government salaries. Here is where the line is drawn between political parties and the terms liberalism v. socialism because the conservatives claim that liberals only seek to sustain the democracy which gives them authority and not to offer equal opportunity to the people who elect them as representatives. Conservatives want everyone to pay equal taxes despite the fact that some can't afford food and shelter while some can buy several apartment buildings and throw banquet parties to show off how much money they make. If you own a building instead of have to pay rent it's easy to say that someone on food stamps should get a job and quit being lazy because you're able to make money doing nothing and meanwhile everyone working 40 hours a week agrees with you despite being in debt for their home, education, car, and complains of too high insurance premiums. They believe they are conservative and that liberals are trying to take away their fundamental needs in the form of taxes for programs to help minorities but this is a lie! A true government of the people, for the people, and by the people is going to take liberties towards socialism in order to provide equal opportunity for every citizen. Communism opposed to liberalism would go a further step and forcibly instill a system of equal pay and has a bad reputation because of the required use of force and suppression of opinion to see such a thing put in place and not because of it's intended social outcome. We know now that this kind of force can be terrible and lead to a fascist oligarchy. This is not liberalism within the confines of democracy but it is a potential outcome of conservative capitalism in governing. 

Glenn is incorrect on "Socialists believe in inequality of opportunity" because that is in fact Capitalism currently the system in place. Opportunity, before government has any say, is provided for according to the amount of money people have earned or have the potential to make which is steadily increasing in inequality especially while social programs of the Obama administration to assist in leveling the field for healthcare availability for everybody including children of those people who can't sustain their most minimum needs much less provide for opportunities for their children, and tuition debt for those who managed to survive to see adulthood and wish to join the workforce. Conservatives believe in "inequality of opportunity" only they call it "equal" because they seek to relinquish taxes that are higher on the wealthy. Equal taxing does not lead to equal opportunity when "job providers" pay minimum wages to make maximum profits and pay the least amount of taxes. This system is verging on true Communism where people die for resisting slavery and their representatives are suppressed by the powers that be who use terms like "patriotism" claiming it's their natural born right to be the ruling class who should be worshipped for granting minimum wage when they have the authority to pay even less if they so choose. This is called "fair" by Trump and Conservatives. Also called "freedom". People are dying without healthcare before they can attain to the limited opportunity of acquiring a lifetime of debt to be paid. Tell someone with cancer to "get a job". Addicts are told the same thing for the fact that they turned to drugs to help overcome their hardships as they're intelligent enough to know there is no use in trying to raise a family because to do so would mean lying to their children on a daily basis... I digress, sick people don't recover in a sick society with a conservative democracy. Liberal measures must be made to assure the social welfare of society before there can be any figment of "equal opportunity" and the American way as it once was billed to be. 

Patriots seek to regain their freedom by emancipation of conservative mind controlled terms used to provoke mental and life long financial slavery calling it entropy or survival of the fittest. They are unfit to rule when fitness is no longer required to be financially stable in the form of labor. Let us not be deceived in the name of Justice! Amen. 

"Justice on fire" @ Cascadia 2017 by Taylor McAvoy Photography and me (pictured) performing the titled piece 🔥

beautiful life from above

LATELY I'VE BEEN IMMENSELY INSPIRED...

Do unto others: Who claims tax exemption when it comes to the golden rule?

If you call yourself a Christian there is only one rule given to you by Christ and that is:

Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. 

So when now was this changed to I work a job and am miserable so I don't want to pay taxes and help feed people who have no job? Why is it assumed that they're lazy? Have you ever been starving and unable to focus on anything else and felt the overwhelming futility of even if you find a job today, you will somehow have to prove yourself competent enough to keep it while having no money for transportation and food for 3 weeks before you will see your first paycheck? Imagine feeling this for a moment and what you would do if stuck in this bleak situation. You would want help! 

You deserve a chance because you know it's not for lack of trying nor being willing to work if given a chance! You know you could turn it around and return to being a productive member of society who works and pays their own way if only another person would present you with the hope and support of caring enough that you might live through those 3 weeks! Now if you were to look to the world, your friends, your family, your church, your community, the government asking for them to carry you so that you might eventually give back and they all were to assume you are a lazy drug addict and say they assume you just die because you are not worth being helped, what would you do? Scrounge up some change and go buy a fifth of MD and drink until you don't feel that pain anymore? I would. What else is there to do but self destruct when told that you need help but none is given from anyone in your world? Really!?

There is plenty of money for weapons of war but none so that the people who live in our communities can feel that anyone cares? Do you want to see Americans dying on the street and have to step over them on your way to your job everyday while knowing they are laying there dying or dead because you would not allow them to receive healthcare, food stamps, and a bus ticket or carpool with them? What will you do when you arrive at work to find none of your subordinates are there and your company is bankrupt because all the people who buy your products are too drunk and distressed to leave their houses and come to work because of all the death and decay outside and now you look to your government who says we can't afford to do anything because we cut your taxes and bought bombs with what was left.

It's up to YOU to do something!! You call the police and they too are dying from influenza and so are their kids because they could not afford the $1200 deductible to see a doctor and pay their mortgage and buy food & gas so they too are hiding at home with a bottle of gin, shooting heroin to numb the feeling of failure and that no one cares about them and yet expects them to clean up this mess you put us in because you could afford to take care of yourself and kept all of your salary instead of asking for a program to keep our country running and happy and healthy!! What now?? Jesus returns?! What will he say if that happens and who do you really think he should take with him, the dying and suffering or you the sadists? Greed is a sin ~ let he who hath not sinned throw the first stone. Greed is more evil than laziness or addiction because addiction is fueled only by suffering.

Judge not lest ye be judged. 

Did Jesus die for you to be greedy and torment everyone else on the planet or so that you might learn to Love one another?

The reason Jesus died on the cross was so that none would have to suffer the same fate! He was trying to make a point!! God was going to destroy all of creation because we are greedy, selfish, and evil and Jesus said, wait.. let me try to show them the way. It is by giving of yourself that you come to know eternal life! Jesus didn't do it for you but to show you how cruel and wrong the world is. There is no way to the father but by me for God is Love and not hate & cruelty and judgement and punishment of those who are less fortunate and yet you would crucify your brother man and call yourself superior and be the other's executioner.

JESUS WILL NOT SAVE YOU UNLESS YOU REPENT YOUR WAYS AND LIVE THROUGH HIM WHICH MEANS YOU MUST BE WILLING TO DIE TO SAVE THE WORLD INSTEAD OF BE WILLING TO KILL. 

Now should we spend tax money on universal healthcare, medicaid, food stamps, treatment for addicts (forgiveness), build new roads and infrastructure, parks & gardens, produce more oxygen so we can breathe instead of burning fossil fuels so that billionaires profit short term OR should we get rich and make war and turn our backs on God, Jesus, and Creation? Don't think for one minute that anyone will save you if you won't donate a small portion of your income tax so that others may simply live. God might save them but you will be left here to serve as slaves to Trump for eternity for it....

Let us talk rationally about conspiracy

Why are conspiracy "theories" so popular on the internet? What provokes ordinary humans to get drawn into researching them? Could it be that nagging gut instinct that something is amiss? Fear. 

Let's look at the facts ~

1.) 1 in 100 of every American is a diagnosed clinical sociopath and these are only those who confess to a psychologist. source: https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/statistics/prevalence/antisocial-personality-disorder.shtml

2.) 0.36% of the world's population own more than $50 million which is more money than they can ever spend in a lifetime if they tried and their children tried and their grandchildren tried because let's say if they spent it all they would be rewarded another $50 million.. They couldn't and of course they're not trying to spend it and instead invest it into more wealth and power with a lust that shows no remorse. Meanwhile 71% of the population owns less than $10 grand which is the recommended "emergency savings" not an actual retirement fund. source:
http://fortune.com/2015/10/14/1-percent-global-wealth-credit-suisse/ 

3.) 23% have far, far less than $10 grand in savings. In fact, 23% of Americans struggle and will continue to struggle indefinitely just to bring their accumulated life's net worth value back to the $0 they were born with. I would call this volunteer or more likely coerced slavery considering that the odds are stacked against them given the current rate of inflation, interest rates, and the average wage increase compared to the rate of inflation or costs of living are nowhere near an ideal match. Not to mention credit card interest rates compared to savings account growth which is easily annihilated by overdraft fees which this 23% know about all too well. I know! I paid my bank $140 for the month of March and was literally starving 5 days of it but I am not in this category as I have zero dollars net worth opposed to negative $10 grand. source: www.bankrate.com/finance/consumer-index/many-americans-living-paycheck-to-paycheck.aspx



So from these 3 facts we can draw irrefutable conclusions that are also facts. This is known as circumstantial evidence and it is precisely what every day is used by a Court of Law to convict criminals. Circumstantial evidence is equal to eyewitness testimony. This is by way of the constitution that set in place a government of the people, for the people, and by the people. But who really controls the facts or rather our perception of these facts? What's the difference between the conjecture of something labeled a "theory" and something declared an "official" agreed upon irrefutable "fact". Acknowledgement of the press. Do I even need to dig up the facts on who owns the press or is it safe to say now that we have a common household term of "fake news" that there is in fact a conspiracy to control our perception and enslave us to suffer endlessly at the hands of overly greedy, malicious, evil sociopaths? I have proven it beyond a shadow of a doubt. Now, what are we going to do about it?

They know if we stop believing in the system then we will starve to death. They don't care, they laugh and pat themselves on the back taking joy in how brilliant their plan is taking effect. They also know that our emotions are our weakness and stress will likely kill us before we are able to organize ourselves into a more powerful mass. Let us begin to think of a simple solution to take our lives and our world's bountiful resources back. We know where the source of power lies: The banking industry and the federal reserve.

What fuels it? The internet or world wide web we're all caught in like dolphins in a tuna net. What if we flick the switch? Let us contemplate the greater good and the end result of short term suffering vs. long term if not infinite slavery and continual suffering. Or maybe our God the Sun/Son will save us. I'll pray for us and I'm a rational agnostic which is why I refer to Jesus as Sol. This opinion matters not and does not negate a single fact as we are united in one common denominator:

"We the people of the United States of America, in order to form a more perfect union... with Liberty and Justice for all."

I believe in love at first sight

I'm cursed. I'm in love and there's not a damn thing I can do about it. No matter how unreasonable it is to feel this way already, I am. He's not. He makes me want to be a better person, the best me, someone worthy of being a good equal partner to him. There's no point in browsing tinder. There's only one him, the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. I'm smitten and also hurting because he is and I don't have a clue what I can do but wait. For the first time in 6 years my ex was replaced in my dreams so I went to meet him. It was the cutest thing I've ever experienced ~ utterly adorable!! So now it's too late. I have no choice but to hope I don't get crushed, seems inevitable. I don't care. For him I'll wait as long as it takes...

Leap and the Net will Appear ~

Heartsinspyre Entertainment is bringing the circus to town so you get to find a date!

Because SINGLES EVENTS SHOULDN'T SUCK. So take a chance and risk some fun for once, eh? We'll see you there! K peace